urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:jen_rsala little spacejen_rsaljen_rsal2007-01-01T05:32:14Zurn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:jen_rsal:1675Life lately2007-01-01T05:32:14Z2007-01-01T05:32:14ZI finally have a car after wrecking loooong ago.<br />Starting school on Jan.16th.<br />Things are loking gooood.<br />JP and I are still talking.<br />Only thing different is that my priorities have changed,<br />I don't care about partying or being well-liked anymore.<br />It's all fake.<br />I am SO happy just being myself now.<br />I am "lame" to a lot people now, but I don't care.<br />I spend a lot of time with my family now and JP.<br />I am not really close to any of my friends anymore because of drugs and their immaturity.<br />This is a new beginning in my life.<br />Things are changing. <br />And I am so ready for this world.urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:jen_rsal:1504Life2006-11-21T06:58:20Z2006-11-21T06:58:20ZAlanisLife has been completely different lately.<br />I live at the Allens with JP of course.<br />I miss my home.<br />My mother.<br />My own closet…<br /><br />Things have changed drastically just in the past few months. I wrecked my car and now I take the Metro bus. I live at James’ and work at the Galleria. I live like 50 miles away from home L<br /><br />I've been so inspired to go back to school and to actually finish a class.<br /><br />I'm not in denial anymore. I know I have screwed up in the past.<br />I've lost friends over my inability to finish anything and my partying.<br />I don't drink to get drunk anymore and drugs have never and will never be a part of my life.<br /><br />Well now that I don't have a car or money I have a new found inhibition to do something with my life and stop being so scared.<br /><br />I am trying to stop smoking and shopping. Two habits that need breaking baaaaaaadly.<br />I also need to purchase a new car. (Thank God I wrecked my car around Christmas) I want a Civic or and Accord... Maybe a Focus?<br />Well whatever I get, after I buy it I am moving back to The Woodlands. I've decided that Houston isn't for me. Living in the city is truly not all it's hyped up to be. Honestly I like The Woodlands better AND I can just DRIVE to Houston in my new CAR whenever I feel like it. I plan on getting an apartment somewhere near The Woodlands and find a waitressing job and go to school (Montgomery College). JP will probably be moving in with me, which will be very nice. I've already gotten used to him being around 24/7 I don't know what I would do without him. He is my brain. My equalizer. My other, better half. <br /><br />Once these things are accomplished I will be on my way to become<br /> a) a photographer<br /> b) an architect/designer<br /> c) accounting???<br /><br /><br />I'm still thinking about it. It's tough when you don't feel like you're really good at anything. It's strange because I was in band ALL through middle school AND high school (I know I'm a dork...) and I never knew how good I was until now. I mean I wasn't the best but I could play oboe and marimba very well. Especially marimba and I loved it. I regret quitting. <br /><br />Things happen for a reason though right? Well I think so anyways.<br /><br />Religion has been a big issue in my brain as well. All of the recent "problems" in my life has really got me reflecting on my purpose. Being raised in a Christian home has molded me into one I guess. I am a Christian. WOW! I have only recently started to tell people because for a while I though I was atheist... that was when things were going VERY well for me. I am so very grateful for what I have now. I was never spoiled but I had it easy. And now that things aren't so easy I see the big picture. It sucks that I had to be 19 when I figured this all out though. <br /><br />Anyways. If you had asked me in high school where I’d be in 2 years I would have never guessed I’d be where I am today. I’ve learned to go with the flow. Be more easy-going. If you know me at all you’d know that I am the most controlling person around. I’ve let loose finally. A lot of it has to do with mister Jean –Paul. When I am with JP I can forget about all the bad things. The negativity. My horrible thoughts that conveniently set in right as I go to bed... Ok I threw that in there but I am serious. I have become a better a version of myself lately. <br /><br />Even knowing that I don't have car or health insurance or that I have been a student for a year and a half and I only have like 8 credit hours, I can still breathe a sigh of relief. I can get back on my feet. I have supporters. My family (Derek especially), JP, Michel, and Karin. Thank you guys. <br /><br />If you actually read this all... um…You know a little bit more about me that you would probably never know. I keep most of this nonsense inside <3urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:jen_rsal:1264This weekend.2006-11-13T05:31:06Z2006-11-13T05:31:06ZI wrecked my car.<br />I am a loser.<br /><br />BUT I had a good time anyways.<br /><br />I like you JP. I like you a lot <3<br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><img src="http://i22.photobucket.com/albums/b319/jpeebers/chicken8.jpg" />urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:jen_rsal:257new.2006-10-17T03:58:24Z2006-10-17T03:58:24ZKings of ConvenienceThis is new to me.